can u tell me why i am having depression?

i think i have lung cancer
n
brain tumour
n
heart disease
n
depression is juz another of those.
rite?

im old n senile.
wt can i do.

hahh!this is rather sadistic.

nvm on to e brighter side!
IVE STARTED ON MY HMK!:D
n its friday. so exciting!
: 3/18/2005 04:35:00 AM

i dont lyk twn.
i really dont like it..
ask me out to somewhere else.

hahhh!im anti twn!


anwws. caught spongebob!
qt a lme movie.
qt funny..
bt still qt lame!
hahaha.

I AM GG TO REPAIR MY FONE!!! tdy i hope.
damn fone.

i am bored.
n no hmks done!
im gonna get grilled whn sch reopens.woww! 3/17/2005 02:40:00 AM

neh neh ni poo poo!

















i wan to b a child againn, like this.. 3/15/2005 07:29:00 AM

When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong
Just remember that in the winter, far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed, that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose

, the rose





im beginning to think lyrics r damn meaningfull=) 3/14/2005 10:12:00 PM

Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
you know it gets the better of me

sometimes, when you and i collide
i fall into an ocean of you
pull me out in time
don't let me drown
let me down
i say its all because of you

and here I go...
losing my control
i'm practicing your name so i can say it to your face
and it doesn't seem right
to look you in the eye
let all the things you mean to me
tumblin' out my mouth
indeed its time
tell you why say its infinately true

and there's no cure
and no way to be sure
why everything's turned inside out
instilling so much doubt
it makes me so, tired
i feel so uninspired
my head is battling with my heart
a logic has been torn apart
and now it ohhh so sour
come sweeten every afternoon...

3/14/2005 09:42:00 PM

time for some life updatee
welllwell.



sunday
went to watch karate nationals selection.cooool sightt!hah. cool to see pp spar n hear e ear piercing OOSH and tt person dere fracturing his arm. sadistic. i jus dont understand how they get their points. bt i still think sparring is fun! although i always have no mood to spar durg trng. scaree. i realise wearing e karate gojukai shirt is cool. no one will dare to bully us! hah. rocks. so you!better stop bullying me! hah..ok im nuts. after too much of inhalation of the nice smell at shitoryu karate federation. hahh!

monday
karate.a need to jump high up! haha. fitness trial. ouch muscle ache!! hahh.COLOUR BELT!!!!

tues
today? oh crap. haha!screwed up e registration for career seminar and then and then.. we ended up on e third storey playing arcade! hahh. its addictive. i got 10th and its an E!!!!HOW COME? hahahaa. n e song thingo makes me HIGH! so nw im hme.
mayb i shld go study.




give me a happy life! tmr. 3/14/2005 09:23:00 PM

let me
stop thinking of you
STOP.
go awayyyyyyyyy!
brain wash me.
i realise i haven gotten over...,
evryting reminds me of .
how torturous


im tired.
you spoilt my day
how i hope nothing matters anymore
how i wish ive got no feelings
nothing at all
you gave me the best and the worst
its obvious wt i say woulden come true
obvious; im avoiding u


What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from."
-TS (Thomas Stearns) Eliot "Four Quartets" -




my faith has drop by more than half
its hard to build it up agn
im sorry,
i need time



im not worth..

give me a happy life:)

3/14/2005 08:56:00 PM